Meditating is something I have been meaning to do for a long time. It is one goal that seems to always make it into my top ten list and has for as long as I can remember. I am not sure why it seems so hard for me to stick to it.
Perhaps it is because I have told myself I am not good at it. It never fails that as soon as I start, not 5 minutes will pass by before some nagging itch will need scratching. Or some muscle will ache begging for a little readjustment. Worst offenders are the hiccups and persistent twitches. They are sneaky saboteurs. Then my monkey mind will start with the “maybe I should be laying down instead”…Long past are the days I fell for that one. Continue Reading…
Posted on December 9, 2008. Add a comment
In my perfect world, balance and growth would be integral. I have had experience in intense growth but at a cost. I used to believe that it was necessary to visit extremes in order to stimulate rapid development. While this may work in some situations, there is no body that can sustain constant barrage of assault without compromising integrity. Burnout out is most often reached by those who do not monitor themselves and maintain their equilibrium. Continue Reading…
Posted on October 21, 2008. Add a comment
I have only voted once. There. I said it. It`s really quite embarrassing for me to admit that now. It wasn`t always though because I used to justify not voting with the fact that I am not interested in politics. Infact, I would even go as far as to proclaim that I don`t “believe” in politics. Ug. Continue Reading…
Posted on October 8, 2008. Add a comment
So it looks like this virtual junk war has triggered a full out offensive. The heat inside my chest to rid myself of this nonsense I have been holding on to is building. It started with my digital photo folder is spreading like a virus motivating me to wipe out all unnecessary items that have somehow seeped their way into my presence. The relentless hanger on-ers are about to be ousted. It began in my virtual closet but the visual clutter on and around my computer desk is no longer sheltered in my peripheral. Continue Reading…
Posted on October 7, 2008. 5 comments
I just realized I have too much stuff. Last time I had this feeling I sold or gave away everything I owned. I am hoping I won`t have to take such drastic measures this time. The feeling began a few days ago and is still going strong. Continue Reading…
Posted on October 6, 2008. Add a comment
The trip is getting closer and my excitement is growing with each day. It`s been far too long since I have gone away which is probably one of the reasons I am letting myself get so worked up. All the planning is done, tickets are bought and reservations made. I usually don`t go into it so organized but this time is was necessary. The Miami Music Conference has made it next to impossible to get accommodation as everything was sold out months ago. Luckily, after calling back a few times we got in thanks to Audrianna persistence in finding a cancellation. Continue Reading…
So here I am. I am at the end of another year. My first winter. I attended a Winter Soulstice ceremony. I decided that it would be a good idea to actually recognize my first winter in how many years? The longest night. The darkest. I walked the labyrinth and the thoughts that came to me were quite unexpected. I reflected over the past year. Wow. So much has happened. I have changed countries. I have changed hemispheres. I have come home. I watch the snow outside and wonder how I used to hate it. Continue Reading…
Posted on December 23, 2005. Add a comment
So I finally caved and got a phone. It was the best non-commital deal I could find. I really don`t feel comfortable signing a 3 year contract so I shopped around for a Pay as you Go deal. I found a phone that even has a camera (crappy but still) and video and lots of other strange things I wonder why I would need. For example, there is a calorie counter, application page and even picture editing capabilities. I can`t even figure out how to use the ringtones and web access let alone send a text message. This is when those long 16 hour bus rides would come in handy. Continue Reading…
Posted on November 18, 2005. Add a comment
This morning at breakfast we met some interesting couples. Over oatmeal and grapefruit we discussed the existence of aliens and the American way. Sus and I have requested to be seated at bigger tables so we can interact with the other passengers. With all these years of experience, surely we would be able to pull a nugget or two of knowledge. Continue Reading…
Posted on November 2, 2005. Add a comment
About my trip: It was more than I ever could have imagined in all my wildest dreams…BUT, I had no idea what I was getting into. Sometimes it was almost too much. Highest highs show you lowest lows. I would even get overwhelmed and try to numb myself from it all. Honestly, it was so hard sometimes. I had to face a lot of truths. A lot of monsters. A lot of disappointment. A lot. Denial is one of the strongest demons that I know. I was pretty high so I had a long way to fall. I was raw and beyond shock when I hit my rock bottom. Continue Reading…
